Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 28

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 29

Strict Standards: Declaration of JParameter::loadSetupFile() should be compatible with JRegistry::loadSetupFile() in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/libraries/joomla/html/parameter.php on line 512

Warning: Cannot modify header information - headers already sent by (output started at /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php:28) in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/admintools/admintools/badbehaviour/screener.inc.php on line 9

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 24

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 25

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 34

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 41

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 50

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 54

Strict Standards: Declaration of JRouterJoomsef::parse() should be compatible with JRouter::parse(&$uri) in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 361

Strict Standards: Declaration of JRouterJoomsef::build() should be compatible with JRouter::build($url) in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 361

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/rokextender/rokextender.php on line 32

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 235

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 755

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 830

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1341

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 877

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 879

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 246

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 857

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 245

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 48

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 249

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 257

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/modulesanywhere.php on line 47

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/modulesanywhere.php on line 50

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/modulesanywhere.php on line 85

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/helper.php on line 53

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/mmbackground/mmbackground.php on line 38

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/mmbackground/mmbackground.php on line 53

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/hotlogin/hotlogin.php on line 28

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/hotlogin/hotlogin.php on line 31

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 171

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 192

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 196

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 201

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 162

Strict Standards: Declaration of AdvancedModulesModelModule::validate() should be compatible with JModelForm::validate($form, $data, $group = NULL) in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_advancedmodules/models/module.php on line 33

Strict Standards: Declaration of AdvancedModulesModelModule::cleanCache() should be compatible with JModel::cleanCache($group = NULL, $client_id = 0) in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_advancedmodules/models/module.php on line 33

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/hotlogin/hotlogin.php on line 57

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 2463

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 373

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 294

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 296

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 297

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 219

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 221

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/helper.php on line 104

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/mmbackground/mmbackground.php on line 98

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/hotlogin/hotlogin.php on line 88

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/ganalyticstrcode/ganalyticstrcode.php on line 32

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_ganalytics/util/dbutil.php on line 56

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 164

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 165

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/jdownloads/jdownloads.php on line 174

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 2463

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 590

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/helper.php on line 129

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/modulesanywhere/helper.php on line 173

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/content/fb_tw_plus1/fb_tw_plus1.php on line 43

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/content/fb_tw_plus1/fb_tw_plus1.php on line 49
William Tyler - Surviving Madness Memories of Mental Hospitals - WhatCausesMentalIllness.com
Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/hotlogin/tmpl/default.php on line 12

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/advancedmodules/advancedmodules.php on line 122

Login

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/providers/RokMenuProviderJoomla16.php on line 23

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 212

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/AbstractJoomlaRokMenuFormatter.php on line 14

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_roknavmenu/lib/renderers/RokNavMenu2XRenderer.php on line 13
   

Main Menu  


Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef_ext/com_content.php on line 273

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef_ext/com_content.php on line 276

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef_ext/com_content.php on line 282

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1858

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1860

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527
   
The issue is not that you get symptoms it's what you do with the symptoms that you get.
Fred Penzel
   

FAQ  


Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527
   

Word Cloud  


Strict Standards: Non-static method modJoesWordCloudHelper::getModuleContent() should not be called statically in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_joeswordcloud/mod_joeswordcloud.php on line 18

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_joeswordcloud/helper.php on line 229
   

Latest Additions  


Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527
   

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 212

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/content/joocomments/joocomments.php on line 21

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/system/joomsef/joomsef.php on line 473

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/content/fb_tw_plus1/fb_tw_plus1.php on line 103

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/plugins/content/joocomments/joocomments.php on line 78

Glimpses

William Tyler - Surviving Madness Memories of Mental Hospitals

Details

William Tyler - Surviving Madness

Memories of Mental Hospitals

1954: Weemac Private Hospital, Sydney

The Specialist, when I told him I could hear ‘voices’, politely said there were none. I wondered why he thought I had come to see him! Anyway, he decided to treat me in this, his hospital, in a Sydney suburb, I can not remember just which, though I suspect it was in Annandale. I was 22 and this was my first experience of a mental hospital.

There were some kind and friendly female nurses, with whom I played cards quite often. The doctor generally spent his mornings giving tablets to out-patients. I just remember one other male inmate, though I imagine there must have been more, who kept to themselves. I do remember being allowed to go for a walk to the local shops down the street to buy cigarettes or sweets for myself.

I do, too well, remember the electric therapy, ‘Shock Treatment’. I had to lie down on the bed in my room and the doctor fitted things I thought were sort of ear-phones over my forehead and gave me a rubber bung to bite on. Electric cords from the gadget on my head lead to a small black box with a lever, near the end of the bed. The Psychiatrist then pulled the lever up and plunged it down again. I just had time to think he seemed to be letting off dynamite, when, trembling with shock, I went unconscious. I can not remember being told what the treatment was or what it was expected to achieve at all, strangely.

There was one incident there too, involving my mother. She came to visit me and found me getting around the place all hunched up. This trouble with my back had happened as I came round out of unconsciousness from the electric therapy. I’d never seen Mum so angry. “What”, she demanded, “were they going to do about this?” At first, nothing. Then my mother insisted on ringing the doctor at his Macquarie St address. She had to fight for the phone, but finally prevailed. Rather reluctantly the doctor suggested that I go around the corner for physiotherapy, to be straightened up again.

Later Mum refused to pay the proffered bill for this, saying it was obviously the Doctor’s treatment that was at fault. Perhaps he thought we were country bumpkins who would readily pay, but he soon found that my mother could assert herself.

All told, I spent a couple of months in this hospital, till the Psychiatrist gave up and certified me insane, to be confined in whatever mental hospital would accept me, true to the laws in those days. Not just a mental illness. You were insane.

1955: The Reception Centre, Watt Street, Newcastle

There was a foreboding about this place where , as I knew, Mad people had to go. And here I was, there! A night in a Padded Cell, before being taken to Morisset to a hospital I had heard mentioned only once before and had forgotten. One certainly has his adventures, when mentally ill or mad!

1955 – 1957 and 1959: Morisset Mental Hospital

As we entered the grounds of the hospital, I saw a sign, ‘Morisset Park’. This reminded me of ‘Mansfield Park’, a novel of Jane Austen’s, which I heard of at university, but hadn’t read. I was sane enough for that thinking.

Life History

In between eating, sleeping and more shock treatment, weaving baskets at Occupational Therapy and work helping in the hospital library, time was filled in with a Psychiatrist taking your life history. I thought this would be sure to do some good, but the Doctor didn’t worry about details, such as how low honours in my degree had affected me, or the deaths in my honour year of my Sister-In-Law and favourite old Aunty. The Psychiatrists were mainly interested in my date of birth and education in general. They concluded I must have studied to hard for my years; and it was a fact that I had been promoted in primary school, so that I was a year younger than most of my education peers. The Doctors asked was I a virgin, which I was; but nothing about financial difficulties going through university. Nothing about how my parent’s pockets had been strained or how I worked in the vacations to get some extra money to add to my Teachers’ College Scholarship.

I told how the hallucinations of ‘voices’ had set in badly once I turned 21, though I didn’t remember to tell them at the time of hearing a few voices since 14. Whatever, this giving of life history filled in some time, with which I was pleased, for it at least mad me feel of some interest and importance.

Hospital Pleasure

Shyly, you get permission to leave the ward and walk around the grounds. I have a little money, so head for the kiosk. A Nestle’s chocolate, a small packet of Viscount cigarettes and a box of matches soon took all your money. There is a seat near the oval where you could sit, eat and light up. As you are by yourself, you don’t have to give any away and so reigister a bit of pleasure. Other times you walk the grounds complete, with an ice-cream cone, or nothing, for money is scarce.

1960’s, 70’s, 80’s Hunter Hospital, Watt Street, Newcastle

Periodic Admissions

If, with marked recurrence of my illness, I had to go back into hospital for a while, for months or weeks over the last 30 years, what did I do there?

After a few days in pyjamas, I am in street wear again and generally get permission to go for a walk down town. I might buy sweets or fruit at a little shop, or in Hunter Street I might have a milk shake or coffee. Perhaps I’ll buy presents for giving on birthdays or Christmas. Spending seems to compensate a bit, for my troubles. Then it’s back, via the park where I would pause for a smoke, on to the hospital for morning or afternoon cuppa. Through the week, group meetings with quizzes to stimulate the brain, discussion of troubles, exercises, art, relaxation, to music. Perhaps a bar-b-q, picnic or bus trip. In the ward a wireless, TV, record player or piano were available for use in spare time. At night especially, I might write a letter or poem. After a rebalancing of medication, the trouble is somewhat under control again and it’s home again, until next time!

Mary

Mary was a nice female patient to whom I couldn’t risk saying she was like Sally. She flared up, thinking I was not religious; but when I explained that I was interested in religion, we soon became friends. We often talked of the purpose of religion in life with a mental illness. She has since married a man in sheltered employment is keeping well. Of course, you never know when mental trouble will recur and may therefore like to be single, rather than accepting the responsibility of marriage and a family of your own, perhaps handing on mental illness too.

1977: Prince Henry Hospital, Sydney

Psychiatric Ward

I spent 3 months there, to be adjusted to a lower level of medication, after my father died and I was not well, trying to live alone. The staff were patient and tolerant and meals were very good. There was generally something doing; group meetings, or occupational therapy, games or walks near the sea, or students taking your medical history and, of course, interviews with your Doctor. I was drastically sick for a while, when they took me right off my medication so that they could start me off again on a smaller dosage of tranquilisers, to see if that was all I really needed. As it turned out, I was alright on the new dosage. I remember doing some reading there; but I was very restless for a while. Luckily, I had relatives and friends in Sydney, who would call in to see em. In fact, a niece was a trainee nurse at this hospital and used to call in frequently to see me. I shall never forget the beautiful coastal surrounds of this place, quite like Morisset near Lake Macquarie. These hospitals were in scenic, restful, ideal positions and very many buildings and grounds.

David

I was sitting alone in the common room listening to some music, when David came in and started dancing. He must have been about 15. We didn’t say anything, but I started clapping in time with the music. He like this and came over next to me and sat down. We exchanged a few friendly words and at later times he would often come to me to talk. When his grandmother came from the country to visit him, he introduced me. She said his father gave him everything and he was spoilt. I said he seemed a likeable lad, but that I had heard him screaming out in the middle of the night. The next day he came to my room, put his arm around me and lead me to the car park. He said he had prayed to God for a car and that it would be there. I had to explain that the cars belonged to people, which he didn’t seem to appreciate at all. Was he kidding me? I didn’t get a reply. Perhaps he couldn’t write, though I remember he was good at drawing comic characters. A strange little friend was David. I wonder whether he is still battling on with mental illness.

Barbara Doogue - The Journey So Far!

Barbara Doogue - The Journey So Far!

My journey started in 1994. I was involved in a car accident, I don’t know why but I have been told by people that a tragedy like that can trigger off thoughts from the past. After the car accident my head just kept thinking of the past and the abuse I had from some family and other people. My mind couldn’t stop thinking about it, so I thought it must be time for me to work through these issues and I arranged to see my local GP who promptly sent me to a psychiatrist.

I was very naive about seeing a psychiatrist, I was working it out, because he didn’t bulk bill, how many times I could afford to go as at that time we were having financial difficulties too. So I thought five would be enough. I still laugh at that as I still go even today.

While talking to the psychiatrist he didn’t even get into my past that I originally went to see him about, he had decided that I was suffering major depression from my present life, through difficult life events. He wanted to see me every week for the present, but then added he would bulk bill me so that was a relief.

In February 1996 I had to leave work and be full time carer for my husband who suffered from back pain and severe depression, so that in itself was hard going from seeing a lot of people daily to being at home constantly with my husband. In the end, the stress of it all, I went from seeing the psychiatrist once a week to three times a week (It proves even then I could talk.) In September that year the government brought in a rule that if you were being bulked billed you could only see a psychiatrist 52 times a year or once a week. The stress was too much, so in October I was given my first admission into a psychiatric ward. I was there 6 months. The condition of me leaving was that I had to go to marriage counselling and get some advice from them. So I did along with my husband and my 10 year old son.

We went to see the counsellors, and we talked and answered many questions for a long time. They advised us that the marriage was no good for my health and I needed to leave him. I was devastated as this was my second marriage and I already felt a failure as the first ended in divorce. So I said that I wouldn’t and believe things can change and we could make it work. I didn’t know if I loved him but he was my best friend and he needed me. So I got out of hospital and went home.

Six months later I couldn’t take the stress of looking after him anymore and watching him slowly kill himself from his morphine addiction he now had as a result of the back pain.

So I said to him that we needed to separate, but I still wanted to see him. A few days after that, he was in the bathroom being sick (which happened quite often because of the pain and the medication), I went into the bedroom to tidy the bed and found a note under the pillow. It was a suicide note, so then I realised why he was being sick and rang the ambulance.

Shortly after that he moved into his own flat nearby. We saw each other daily but I was home after school so I could have much needed time with my son.

One morning after my appointment with my psychiatrist I caught the bus to his flat and when I opened the door that is when I saw him lying on the floor with a note near by saying he couldn’t take it anymore and that I would be better off without him and he was sorry.

So that started my five years of going in and out of hospital. A short stay for me would be a month. All together if you added up the time spent in and out of hospital over the five years, it works out to be 2 and half years. With about 30 ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy) and a few stays in the lock up ward as they believed I would harm myself. I also overdosed about half a dozen times and self harmed quite regularly.

Through all that time I had a lot of diagnoses from major depression, post traumatic stress disorder, bi-polar, borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive order. The only diagnosis they haven’t used on me is schizophrenia and that is purely because I don’t tell them about the voices in my head.

You know for four years mental health services kept telling me there was nothing I could do it was a chemical imbalance, take your medication. It was hereditary, take your medication. You will be like that the rest of your life, take your medication. You will be in and out of hospital the rest of your life, take your medication. I believed them; I mean why would I not, they are the experts.

So what was the turning point? Firstly I had a psychiatrist who worked out I would be better just with one private psychiatrist (I had lost my original psychiatrist because I self harmed after he had said he would not see me again if I did). So I saw the public ones which meant a new doctor every three months; it was like starting again every three months, repeating my story. So she decided to see my privately and that helped a bit. She decided at one time to refer me to a psychologist even though when I had left Glenside they referred me to one but I was refused as they said it wouldn’t help. So she put the forms in and I was referred to the local hospital psychologist and he did his review and it came back to my doctor with a note saying, he wouldn’t work with me as he didn’t see that it would help me.

Again my psychiatrist was at a loss of what to do for me. She thought she would give it one more try and refer me to a psychologist in the Salisbury mental health office and see what happens. Well, to everyone’s amazement, she said yes. I always believed she liked challenges. And that was the day my life turned around.

The first meeting I had with her she said, she will only work with me if I was prepared to do the work as she didn’t have time for time wasters. She would do ten sessions with me and then review. I ended up working with her for 2 ½ years until I was discharged from mental health services.

So what did she do? She treated me like a normal person, talked to me like an equal. And from day one she never gave me the idea that I can’t do anything about my illness, that I was going to be like this for the rest of my life; she showed me I had options and consequences for my actions and that I could have a productive life if I worked hard enough. That’s what I did slowly; and slowly, one step forward and two steps back, then one step forward and one step back until I was moving forward more than back.

I had to learn that it was not my fault my husband killed himself; I did not give him the tablets one by one. I had to learn that yes I am the biggest sook in the world, but there are ways I can learn to communicate my feelings and desire and wants from people that I could manage. I learnt strategies to use when I felt down or suicidal, things to do when I was angry or overwhelmed; it was slow but it happened eventually.

When I first started seeing my psychologist I stayed at home most of the time only coming out to shop and pay bills once a fortnight, or go for any medical appointments. Other than that I lived in my house, my cave as I called it. She likened me to Miss Haversham from great expectations where she lived in her house for 30 years in her wedding dress because she was jilted on her wedding day.

So slowly I took baby steps to get out. My first major outings were I would walk to my local MacDonald’s and read the paper while having breakfast, so I was getting out of the house, just not spending time with people. Then I started op shopping; something I learned and l became to love and still love, then gradually doing a few social things with an organisation called GROW and then soon after attending GROW meetings and then working voluntary with the GROW fieldworker. My psychologist once told me just because I was on the pension didn’t mean I couldn’t work for it.

Since then I have grown an awful lot, when I think there was a stage in my life where my support system was regular visits to the psychologist, regular visits to my psychiatrist, a case worker from mental health, a lot of medication and frequent hospital admissions, to now I work part time, I see a psychiatrist once a month (as I am training her!!!) and very minimal medication, which through to things happening in my family life I have only just gone back on.

As I said at the beginning, this is my journey and it continues; I get stronger each day and learn new things. I appreciate what I have gone through because it has made me the person I am today. I believe a better person than I was.

Powered by Bullraider.com
   

Free WebSpace

   

Glimpses - Our Experiences with Mental Illness


Strict Standards: Non-static method modRandomNewsWithIntroHelper::getList() should not be called statically in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/mod_randomnewswithintro.php on line 13

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 16

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 17

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 27

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 32

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Warning: Creating default object from empty value in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 97

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Warning: Creating default object from empty value in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 97

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Warning: Creating default object from empty value in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 97

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Warning: Creating default object from empty value in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 97

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.router.php on line 115

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 69

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 73

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/administrator/components/com_sef/classes/seftools.php on line 949

Strict Standards: Only variables should be passed by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 378

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/sef.ext.php on line 68

Strict Standards: Only variables should be assigned by reference in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/components/com_sef/joomsef.php on line 1527

Warning: Creating default object from empty value in /home/billbmn/public_html/wcmi1/modules/mod_randomnewswithintro/helper.php on line 97
   
© (c) Whatcausesmentalillmess.com